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Waiting in abortion clinic, here’s why she changed her mind

Kimberly Henderson became a viral Internet star when she posted a YouTube video singing “How Will I Know” to her baby daughter, Vaida. Kimberly shares that doctors thought Vaida was deaf as a small baby, so Kimberly sang to her all the time.

Vaida is Kimberly’s youngest daughter, but the young mother also has three other children. Her eldest daughter, who she became pregnant with at 16, inspired Kimberly’s latest hit, “Tiny Hearts.”

In “Tiny Hearts,” Kimberly shares part of her story as a young mom:

Sometimes I feel like my whole world is crashing down
While all my friends are being young and dumb and playing around
They’re out all night living a life that I just had to let go
I watch you sleep right next to me
It’s you and me on our own
Sometimes I feel there’s a world out there I’ll never know

But I know who I am
Yeah I know who I am
Tiny hearts are in my hands

On Facebook, Kimberly posted her “almost-abortion” story about her daughter, Vaida. She is an incredible example of a woman who knew she didn’t need to sacrifice the lives of her children to succeed at life.

Vaida Everly (from Kimberly Henderson's Facebook page)
Vaida Everly (from Kimberly Henderson’s Facebook page)

Two years ago today, I was sitting in an abortion clinic thinking not having Vaida was best for me.

People remember dates for birthdays, and anniversaries. Well, this date is forever burned in my brain. It’s a day that I will remember, and I remember every single detail of that day. I think that is God’s way of showing me that HIS plan is and will always be greater and bigger than anything and everything I’ve ever known.

I sat in the abortion clinic for nearly seven hours. I remember wearing a pink t-shirt that was soaking wet from crying. Below is my post from that day and I remember crying the entire time I was writing it. I hope that by sharing this that it touches someone.

“Today I was at the abortion clinic. I had my mind made up. My boyfriend was cheating on me. I have small kids, what will people think?? I kept telling myself I’m all alone I need to do this. Sitting there…I could hardly make out anyone or anything through the tears.

People were eating fast food around me, laughing, texting. I on the other hand was a wreck. I kept my face down, my face was drenched in tears. I kept telling and giving myself every reason to go through with this even though I did not believe in it. I kept saying I’m on birth control – this could not happen…I kept trying to justify it, but my heart was heavy. I felt like I was about to make a horrible, horrible decision, and God was giving me signs to not do it.. I woke up this morning, [and] my daughter was sick. I had to find a sitter, I got lost, my car broke down for about 15 mins and I got here late, but they still got me in. I prayed God would stop and give me a sign, give me the strength to get up and walk out of here..

The lady called me to the desk – last step before you go back. I fumbled through my wallet to find my driver’s license, and out fell a card a couple left on the table Saturday night when I was working… It had their church name on it.. On the back was a common verse…

“Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

I knew God was speaking to me.

Two of my best friends called me just in time and said the most comforting things. “I will be there for you..There’s a reason God gave you that gift.”

I told the lady I changed my mind. As I was about to walk out, a young girl no older than probably 19 says to me…”Are you going to do it?” I told her I couldn’t.. She said…”I wish I could be brave like you.” I told her she was brave and she could do the same thing. She said she had to do it because of some serious circumstances… As I turned around she said, “When you see your baby’s face for the first time, you’re gonna be so glad you walked out of here today.”

Pouring tears, I walked out and felt a huge weight off my shoulders. No matter what your circumstances are, God doesn’t make mistakes, and he is here for you.

This is my testimony. If you have any negative comments, you can refrain from making them here. I will let it be known that I do not care what people think. Hence this post. My friends and family mean the world to me, and have my back 100%. Even if I have to do this by myself. I thank God everyday for them. ”

Most of all I remember the enormous amount of relief and strength I felt when I walked out those doors. No guilt. No shame. No regrets. I remember feeling that this all… This all has to mean something one day.

My daughter Vaida Everly has a purpose. Her name means “beautiful life.” And lord she is just that… A beautiful life. After a scary pregnancy, and after countless weak moments thinking I just could not do this by myself.. .September 12, 2013, I welcomed my beautiful Vaida Everly into this world with both my best friends by my side.

I remember seeing her for the first time and bursting into tears. Engraved in my head were the words that girl told me before leaving the clinic that day, “When you see your baby’s face for the first time, you are going to be so happy you walked out of here today..” She was beyond right – 6 pounds, 4 ounces of pure perfection, and no matter what pain I felt physically and
emotionally, she gave me a feeling of joy that I can’t even explain – a kind of joy that if a war was going on outside, I wouldn’t even know it. I am so in love.

My once tiny 6 pound baby is now 18 pounds. Full of life, full of energy, loves to laugh, loves to smile.

And last but not least, she is that beautiful baby girl I was singing to at midnight in the kitchen. The video that has touched millions of people all over the world. Singing to her in our kitchen for a memory keepsake is the reason our entire life is about to change. For the good. For the better. She was meant to be here.

I’m so lucky.

‪#‎tinyhearts‬

Watch “Tiny Hearts”, which has garnered nearly 1,000,000 views  in just over a month, below:

Visit Kimberly Henderson’s Facebook page here, and share her story with your friends! This is exactly what many women need to hear. They, too, can be brave enough to do this.

  • cranemaker

    Beautiful story and appropriate song with it too!

  • You are a beautiful example of a courageous mom, Kimberly. Thank you for sharing your story and giving your daughter the gift of life, even when it was hard to do. She is blessed to have you as her mom!

  • LadyFreeBird<God'sNotDead

    Thank you for your story of LOVE . <3 In 1961 A Doctor told my Mom he would end my life .She did not want me . The reason I am Alive is because my Dad wanted me . He would have left her . I am always happy when Moms Choose Life . <3 This story may save a babies life !

  • mommyto3gr8ones

    I’m sad the 19 year old didn’t get up and walk out too, I can’t help but wonder how she feels about her decision. I do love this story though, very beautiful!

  • Aaron Bakker

    As a father of three, I cannot imagine the war that must wage in a woman’s mind in this situation. I love my kids like I could never explain and that is even a small comparison to their mothers love. I so wish that the mothers who are considering an abortion could step forward in time and smell the sweet smell of their baby’s skin, touch their little lips and hear their tiny voice for just one second before signing the final death warrant. Being a parent is the hardest thing you will EVER do, it is full of joy, love, delight, hurt, sorrow, disappointment and then again in the midst of all of that, again love. No one can love you or hurt you like a son or daughter, but my life is infinitely richer as a result of my children being in my life. And an additional benefit is you get to meet other parents and wonderful kids along the way to enrich your life as well. Maybe this will touch one person, maybe not, but this is the perspective of a very proud and NOT perfect dad.

  • Felicity Ann

    thank you for sharing your story! i am to a young mother of two beautiful girls, i really appreciate your story again thank you!!!

  • Daniel

    Amazing story and absolutely beautiful song. You and your daughter truly are an inspiration!

  • flora

    I think that’s so sweet. every mother should have a chance think about their child and how beautiful they would be. I applaud you for your decision. Best of luck to all.

  • ravaskye savage

    Beautiful story God bless , I’m glad I changed my mind and keeping my baby God has a plan for all of us